FEELING THE SHIFT
BREATH After yet another great shift in life, and the feeling of resistance, I took to nature to find peace. For several days I kayaked, watching the season change from summer to fall. Observing the natural environment to find peace with mine. The steady breathing with each paddle became the natural entryway into the moment and experience. The breath finding a rhythm with the current and waves. Adjusting moment to moment with exertion and rest and the play in-between. Finding balance and harmony in the inhale and exhale, and the moment of pause between each – a point of stillness.
SOUND What at first sounded like quiet was a chorus of birds communicating between the trees. I started listening to each individual call until it felt as though they were singing in unison. The sound of leaves falling from the trees, a sound I had never noticed before. Each one making its final song as it descended to become one with the water. The sound of the breeze as it grew in intensity, whistling through the trees and over the water.
SIGHT Colors became more vivid as I let go of distraction and brought awareness to those that spoke the loudest, needing to communicate what I couldn’t see. The play of color in the water and sky. Aqua, the color of peace and calm. Blue, the color of healing. Sapphire, the color of regeneration. The clouds with different layers of white and gray. White for lightening up and gray being the ray to identify blocks in life. A leaf floating on the water with reds, browns, and greens. Red for freedom, brown for establishing boundaries, and green to revitalize the nervous system. I became receptive to these qualities and saw their influence and necessity in a time of change.
SMELL With deeper breathing came the smells floating on the breeze. The dampness of the earth and leaves decaying. The refreshing smell of pine. The crisp clean smell of the water. Each smell lending to memories that flooded my mind and then washed away to a feeling of being refreshed and revitalized.
TOUCH The breeze, at times, becoming strong enough to call wind. Feeling the sting of cold with pockets of warm air, how both came together to create weather patterns. My hands dangling in the water feeling the sensation of weightlessness. My entire body feeling supported by the water, at times overwhelming, yet exhilarating in greater depths and tranquil closer to the shore. My need for security and protection.
INSIGHT Nature itself providing direct meaning and offerings through the crane (representing longevity), the red winged blackbird (change), the deer (gentleness), the beech tree (sustenance), the maple tree (versatility), and the willow tree (harmony and respect). The meanings offering tools and insights to weather through this season with grace and ease.
Bringing all these qualities to the experience of change, the sensations risings to the surface and rippling away until coming to a place of stillness. Noticing the qualities of floating and drifting with the natural current of water instead of pushing and striving against it. The need for balance and harmony in all that we do. Understanding and feeling the experience of letting go, finding gratitude in the experience, and peace in the lessons learned. Moving from the anxiety of separation to a feeling of connection…some experiences timeless and without words.